Without You

Life can be so different, without you around me always

♥͜ ♥

Is that love I see in your eyes?
Or is it just a reflection of mine?
♥͜  ♥

Friends?

I love you more everyday
My name I long for you to say
Do you even know how I feel?
That this love is real?
I'd love to know what you think
When I'm near, do your cheeks go pink?
I dream of you every nigh
Wishing you would hug me and hold me tight
It drives me crazy as to what I should do
Should I risk this great friendship and confess to you
Or should I keep my feelings inside
Keep them away, forever to hide
I dont know what to  do anymore
My heart aches, its sore
I love you more than you will ever know
And I never want to let you go
So even if we are friends,
I 'll still love you till the end

Words

There are words that show feeling,
There are words that express our mind,
There are words that transform us all,
There are words that reach deep into our souls,
There are words that bring us love and hope,

Simple words, yet very powerful

There are the words that come out of your mouth, that touch my heart&soul, and I love hearing everyday.

You Make Me Smile

The way you talks,
makes me laugh

The way you smile at me,
gives me butterflies

The way your eyes talk to me,
make my heart melt

Just about everything about you,
makes me smile

♥

Can't stop thinking about you.
;)

The Things You Do

I love you for he things you do,
that bring smiles to my face

I love you for the silent moment,
where your eyes tell me what i want to hear

I love you,
just because I do

Why I Love You

I love you for so many reasons
Big and small
And all of them wonderful

I love you for all the great things
That make you one of a kind
And the one for me

I'm Crying

You're so sad,
you want to make me cry

My Mayesha!

The words of an angel spoke softly in my ear.
Every word touching my heart.
Of kindness and love, but never fear.
The words were like harmony played from an angels harp
I'll never forget the kindness and joy that came from your heart.

My angel:Mayesha

My Heart Is Smiling

This exact moment right here,
is making me smile,
because everyone I love is in harmony

100 POSTS

I've made 100  posts just for you guys.
So all of you are able to read what my heart is feeling.
I want to look back and see that my friends were there, supporting me through the times I had.
And this blog is to remind myself who I am, and who I always will be.

xoxo

Just Knowing You'll Return

I never thought that I would need you this much

I need you right now.

But, you promised you'd returnYou you said you would never lie to me.

Knowing that you'll return
makes me smile

Do You Mean What You Say?

Saying something is something..
But meaning it is a whole 'nother story

Why I Wake Up

Everyone has there own reason for waking up in the morning..
mine is you
;)

Would You Save Me?

Trapped in darkness
Would you save me?
Swallowed up by the darkness
with light draining each
hour,
minute,
second...
My mind split
My spirit shattered,
my soul lost forever
in this darkness.
Would you ever save me?
From all of this?

Guide Me

Guide me,

away from the misery,
the pain,
the tears,
I can't take it anymore
I need you
to be here
with me,
Guide Me..away from here

Never Say Goodbye

Never say goodbye,
Because good friends don't say goodbye,
They just simply say "See you soon"

Breath

Life is not measured by the breaths we take,
But the number of moments that take our breath away.

You take my breath away.

When You Find Out Who You Are

There are moments in your life that make you
and set the course of who you're going to be.

Sometimes they're little, subtle moments.
Sometimes they're big moments that you never saw coming.

No one asks for their life to change, but it does.
Its what you do afterwards that counts

Thats when you find out who you are

Thinking Of You

You maybe out of my sight,
but not out of my heart

You may be out of my reach,
but not out of mind

I'm always Thinking Of You

Always Remember

Always remember to forget the things that made you sad
But never forget to remember the people that made you glad

Always remember to forget the people that proved untrue
But don't forget to remember those who have stuck by you

Always remember to forget the troubles the troubles that have passed away
But never forget the great memories that come each day

Dear Maliha,

If ever a day go by where I say I don't love you, may never a moment go by where you think I don't
;)

I'm Not Wasting My Time On This Flower

Life is lie a flower,
and having life being so short and brief

I won't waste my time on you,
full of headaches, pain, and stupidity

Where You Walk

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow
Don't walk behind me, I'm not the greatest leader
Just walk beside me, and be my friend

What A Friend Is,

A friend is someone who you think your life would be totally different if they didn't exist.  A friend is someone who NEVER leaves you out, you are ALWAYS included in their life.  A friend is there for you, no matter what.

Does this describe you/your friend?

Your Freindship

Your friendship is like a diamond.
True and rare.
I feel so lucky
To have found you,
within all that coal,
friends as precious as you.

Four Leaf Clover

Good friends are hard to find,
like a four leaf clover.
Hard to find,
but great and lucky to have.

What Do You Hear?

Everyone hears what you say.
Friends listen to what you have to say
True friends listen to what you don't say.

Are Your Ears Open?

I'm going to tell you a secret...



The secret to being a good friend,
is being a good listener

Never Say..

Never say you're happy, when sad
Never say you're okay, when you are not
Never say you feel good, when you feel bad

Never say you're alone, when I'm still alive

My Wish

If I could wish for something,
I'd make it just for you

My heart Depends On You

It warms my heart to know
You've labeled me as your friend.
A loyal, loving person.
On whom My heart can depend

MY GUIDE

You've guided me through bad times,
Wiped away my tears.
You've bought me so much joy,
As we've traveled through the tears.

Ray Of Sunshine

You are a ray of sunshine,
In a world that is often grey.
The magic of you're company,
Brightens up the day.

You're A Flower

Friends are like flowers,
The more they grow,
the more beautiful they come

You're A Beautiful Rose

A Friend

A friend gives hope,
when life is low
A friend is a place,
when you have nowhere else in the cold cruel world to go
A friend is honest,
A friend is true

And that my friend,
is you

;)

♥<----Part of this is yours, because you're a true friend

We're Never Apart

Though seas might be between us,
we are never far apart,

For friendship dosen't count distance,
it is only measured by the heart

Your Footprints

Friends will come and go,
But true friends will leave footprints in your heart

Always

I want you to know I'll be there for you,
Always

Friends

I'm here for you
Just like you're there for me

Friends

Dear Meha,

When need someone to talk to
You always make time for me
You're there when I want you to be
And I know you'll always be

You're too great

Dear Maliha,

Dear Maliha,
When theres a frown on my face,
You're the one put a smile on my face
Making me laugh by being you
You're the best little sister I could've asked for
Even if you're different, thats what I love about you

Don't change

Dear Maisha,

Dear Maisha,
Just a thank you note.
Because when everyone is rushing in life,
you pressed pause for me and help me
helped me with so much
Thank you

I Admire You

Footsteps

Life's journey is easier, when you hear a friends footsteps near you.

Never Explain Yourself

Never explain yourself
Because your friends don't need it,
And you enemy's wont believe it.

I Will Always Be There

Always beside you,
Until the very end
Wiping you tears away,
Being your friend
I will feel all the pain you feel

And if you shed a single tear,
I promise I too will cry

You're A Star

Good friends are like stars.
You cant always see them,
but you know there always there.

You're A Diamond(For You Guys)

Never take a person for granted.  Hold every person close to your heart because you might wake up one day & realize that you've lost a diamond.
(Don't waste time collecting stones)  ;)

I'll Always Be There

No matter how far away you are.
If its just to listen.
If its just to talk.
I'll always be there.

Whenever you'll need me,
I'll always be there.

You're Too Much

You're too much.
Too sweet.
Too Kind.
You get me too much.
You're too much for me to handle.
But my heart will never let you go.
You're too much.

Don't Let Others

Don't let others tell you who you are

What you're suppose to do

Don't let others control you, or your heart

Whoever Said

Whoever said it was better to love and and lost than to never have loved at all, must never have had their heart broken

Hurts

Love that we cannot have,

hurts the most

last the longest

and feels the strongest

You

I love you

I always have, I always will

Even if you never let me in

I still can't keep you out of my mind

My memory of you is like a tick, hard to get rid of

Even if you don't love me in return,

I'm always thinking of you

You make me laugh, You drive me crazy

And the best/ worse of all,

You made me fall in love with you

It Is Not

Love is not impatient

Love is not kind

Love does not envy

Nor does it anger easily

Love is not proud

Love is not rude

It is not self-seeking

It is not happy

It is not like us

It is just what you feel when you've met the right person

Ask Me Why

Ask me why I keep on loving you

when its clear you don't feel the same about me

The problem is

As much as I cant force you to love me

I cant force myself to stop loving you

Destiny

Even when we're miles apart

We are each others destiny

Perfect

Someones first love is always perfect.

Perfect

Until the day it ends

The day it has to be over

Fairytale

Once in a while

Like a blue Moon

Like true love

In the middle of an ordinary life

Love gives us a fairytale

We Are Only Given Today

We are all given today

But never given tomorrow

So use this day

To tell someone how you really feel

THIS IS A FACT

it is better to be hated for what you are and stay true to yourself

than to be loved for something pathetic that you're not

Never

Never say "i love you"

If you really don't care

Never talk about feelings

If they aren't there

Never hold my hand

If you're gonna break my heart

If all you do is lie

Never say hi

Never

Waiting

Inside my skin, there is this place

It twists and turns,

It bleeds and aches.

Inside my hollow heart

There's an empty room,

Its waiting for love,

Its waiting for you.

I need you here,

inside the absence of fear.

Emotions

Emotions are what controls us

They take us,

and then they break us

They make us cry,

when we have to say goodbye

Without You

Without you...

I have no purpose, no goal

Just another life, with no soul

Torn

The sadness I feel is overwhelming

My soul has lost its guide

My heart trying to continue beating

Though its been torn from deep inside

&Walk A Mile

I want to hold you&and walk a mile,

for I never want to be away from you,

even for a while

Hug me for my worries to die,

for my tears to dry,

and for my loneliness to fly

Fear of the future is worse than pain of the past

I miss you every moment of the day

I keep myself awake just to listen to you

I keep that place in my heart empty for you to fill

I keep myself alive just to see you

Seconds are too long to miss you

I want to hold you&walk a mile

For I will miss you,

even for a while

Someday

Someday, everything in the world will make perfect sense

But for now,

laugh at the confusion

smile through the tears

and never forget,

everything happens for a reason

Someday, everything in the world will make perfect sense

I'm Losing Myself

I'm losing myself to things I never knew existed

Things that I thought were fantasy

Things unimaginable

But I will be sure to never lose who I am

Who I really am

Never to lose my voice

And to always show the world what I am

Be With The One That.....

Be With The One That.....

makes you smile

makes you laugh

makes your day worth while

wont let you down

is always there

makes you feel like no other

Because that person will be the one that makes you happy. Makes you feel that LOVE isn't just four letters put together. Makes you feel like is feeling will last forever...and when that person comes, they'll make sure it does.

What It Is

Love isn't what makes life special.

It just makes it worth while.

We Are almost Twins

You cry for me

like I cry for you

You need me

like I need you

You miss me

like I miss you

You need me

like I need you

You'll never hurt me

like I'll never hurt you

You love me

but never as much as I'll ever love you

I Don't Know Why

Don't tell me not to cry

Don't tell me to be strong

I'm feeling things and I don't know why

All I know is,

You weren't there

More Than You Think

You maybe just one person to the world...

But you just might be the world to one person

Don't take yourself for granted,

don't be insecure.

This is for everyone...

because it is always true

;)

Means Too Much

Your love warms me,

like hot cocoa on a brisk winter day

Your love comforts me,

like your compassion&words

Your love makes me melt,

like chocolate on a cold winter day

Your love completes me,

like a broken heart finding its missing piece

100 Year Plan

In 100 years

It will not matter,

if I was a bitch

if I was popular

If I was the girl who always shot 3 pointers

if I had the best hair

All that will matter, will be that I was there

Making difference, to lives that are not mine

I was in hearts, I am on scars full of love

Forever remembered, never forgotten

Fair Trade??!

You gave me you're pain,

and I gave you mine

You e me your tears,

and I gave you mine

You gave me your heart,

and I trust you with mine

We made a promise,

to keep care of each others belongings

To never lose them, even when we lose ourselves

And to make sure, to never lose each other

Fair?OK?

Its done, forever a trade

never to be exchanged

~

When you say good bye to the rest of the world,

You know I'll be saying hello soon

For you see,

without you,

I'm too weak to survive

The Day It Happens

The day it happens...

you're name will be on the gun and bullet,

so people know you were the last thing on my mind

You're A True Friend

You're always there

annoying me

having me threaten you

hurt you

Feel like making you feel you about to die

making me want to kill you

THANK YOU

for your support

encouragement

love&appreciation

You're a true friend.

Not another like you

When You Wake Up

When you wake up,

and theres a tear streaming down your cheek

And your stomach hurts

You have a horrible migraine

Your whole body aches and you feel SICK

But there is a smile on your face

that is when you know you are in love

hope that day soon comes for all of us

Don't Lie To Me

Don't tell me that you love me,

when you're far away

Don't tell me you'll always be there,

when you're far away

Don't lie to me,

I don't need that

Don't give me your lies,

you're love is what I want instead

Every time I Think Of You

At the start of a new day~~

I find my self thinking of you

In the middle of a day~~

My mind wanders, and I think about you

Every time I close my eyes~~

I see your smile and hear your laugh

When I open my eyes~~

There you are..always there for me

We Wont Part

With your love close to me and my heart,

I ask for nothing else

Near or far,

friends forever

;)

I Love You

I love you for being there,

to wipe away my tears

I love you for making me smile,

whenever I feel sad

I love you for finding that part of me,

that I never knew I had

I love you for the emotions,

I never knew I had

I love you

(Unclique, Binita, ETC.!!!!!!!)

Torn

torn between two sides.

Both hateful.

Both evil.

But both with love

Undecided.

I'm torn between two sides.

Two pieces of evil I cannot scratch off my heart.

So hard to decide.

The whole has already broken,

and soon the pieces will start to crumple.

All My Fault.

Find The Key

You want the key

you want to know whats hidden behind those doors

you want the key

unlock all the mystery's you seek

But you see

No one will be able to find the key

It takes trust

it takes love

e hidden forever, until that one day

it takes things no one will be able to unlock

for the key shall be locked away forever

Until the day,

the day where everything is unleashed

from true love

Flattery

flat·ter·y 
–noun,plural-ter·ies.
1. the act of flattering.
2. a flattering compliment or speech; excessive, insincere praise.

Flattery is deception.
It is used to hide many things.
For people who are incapable to show their true emotions.

Flattery

The word who's definition is used more than it should be.
Made for people who do not know how to act like themselves while growing in society.

It Your Fault

You do what you do.

No one else.

People may affect your life, but you're the one who does what you do.

People may make you sad, but you decide to paste that frown on your face.

Don't say she made me do it or whatever, cause you're the one who decides to let it happen.

YOU.

<--Backspace

Go ahead press that backspace button.

Just because something on the internet is deleted, doesn't mean the pain in someones heart also disappears.

Don't think you're slick.

It might not have been meant for my eyes, but neither were the tears tears that I had coming out of my eyes when I saw your words.

You're as fake as possible.

You might be the best out of acting like you're a real person, but you're not doing a good job at it.

Don't think just because you deleted something, I didn't see it.

That I didn't feel the pain you would've felt if you saw something like that written about you.

Don't think that backspace button helped you hide you're dirty little secret.

I'm sorry you were assigned to me, but you're job is over.

Don't waste your time on me, because I refuse to waste my time on you.

You tried to convince me you were a good person, but you're just like the rest. You fit perfectly in your group of bitches, so don't act like you're someone true to yourself or others. Because you're not.

You know who you are. Not just the person who accepted to do such a dirty deed, but the people who made it happen. Don't even try to blame others, because you did this. YOU.

★As Midnight Strikes★

As midnight strikes.

I will be done with this play.

I will move on, to something else.

Another scene of acts, everyday.

Leaving pre-teen. Going on to teenager.

Lets take a look at my reviews..shall we?

1st Play(1-3) ~☻ ☻ ☻ 3/5 Smiles.

I cant exactly blame them, that was the time for me to be a whiny baby.

2ND Play(4-7)~ ☻ ☻ ☻ ☻ 4/5 Smiles.

I guess thats OK, I wasn't exactly the one to talk, I guess when your voice is never heard, you stop believing that you are able to speak.

3rd Play(8-11)~ ☻ ☻ 2/5 Smiles.

I didn't expect from myself, I guess thats how I ended up disappointing more than myself.

Currently(11-12)~ ☻ ☻ ☻ 3/5 Smiles.

Sigh. The time where I realize tears occur in my life more than they should. Where scars show mistakes, I've made so many. Just a disappointment, don't even know where to go next, what to do next. Sigh.

I'm scared, what if I fail. What if in this act I don't even get half of a smile. I'm just scared. I don't know how to act for my next play. So many thoughts going through my mind. Should I act happy, continue what I've been doing most of my life and during daily intermission, I just cry and act away my true feelings. Or should I just stop the show forever and act as the girl I've always been. Never mind. I would never expose the world of the girl who just darkens everyday, and hides it by pretending to smile.

Sigh.

Black Roses @-->-->---

What is black?

Is really a symbol of death, and hate, as well a evil?

Or does it mean something more?

Something special.

Everything is Unique.

And special.

Everything is different.

Its hard to spot someone who is eternally beautiful.

And truly special.

Thats why, along with someone who is true to themselves and life, you can never spot...a black rose.

Tears In A Star**

My tears fall with passion.

Like tears conceived from stars.

Full of brightness & energy.

Seen only from afar.

Tomorrow these tears shall

be full of pain.

But I can also feel relief from my heart.

Because the stigma is revealed,

unfaithful, and UN-forgiven.

I cannot let this be,

so I must be pure...

To only myself....for eternity.

Don't Think You're That Special, Hun.

I've stayed quiet and gotten distracted from your crap long enough.

You've had you're fun.

You've told your 80 stories.

You wouldn't let me talk when my voice was ready to explode.

You've caused me to make this post.

You've done what you think you are able to do.

You think you have power and popularity.

You think alot of things that are deeply incorrect actually.

And if you're reading this, and thing that I'm wasting my time on you,

Don't think your that special,

Hun.

Just Leave Me Alone

Do I look like I wanna talk,

if I do,

I'm sorry for misleading you.

Don't call me.

Don't speak to me.

Don't try to make feel better.

-JUST LEAVE ME ALONE-

The Word Depression

No one is happy all of the time, but some people feel as if they can never find happiness. Some people feel as if their entire life is devoted to nothing but pain and hurt and loneliness. Every day is a struggle, and every breath a fight for survival. These people have a deep understanding of the word Depression.

Smiles

I'm in pain when I smile.

My laugh lines show depression.

As my lips crack, so does my heart.

I'm in pain when I smile.

Dry Tear

Has there ever been a time where...

Where you too weak to wipe your tears, off you face?

Where your head is paralyzed into the position where the only thing you are able to see is your knees, growing weak

Where your hands cant move because you arm is tired of a blade ripping through it?

Where nothing you can do is cry and cry, but not have the energy to wipe the tears away?

Of course you have, you've let that little piece of sadness shrivel into your soul. If you have, you have had * A Dry Tear

Be There. For Me.

Only you are able to make my darkness bright

Only you are able to fill my heart with light.

Your in my thoughts,

but never in my sight

without you,

I'm too weak to win this fight

MY WINGS

I have my wings.

Watch me crash as I try to fly.

I have my wings.

Looking In The Mirror

"YOU FUCKING BITCH!! I HATE YOU. YOU RUIN EVERYONES LIFE!GO TO HELL. YOU MAKE MY LIFE A GREAT MISERY, AND I HOPE YOU DIE. YOUR JUST WASTE OF TIME, SPACE, AND MONEY! YOU DON'T MATTER. YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT. MY GOD, YOU FUCKING DISGUST ME YOU BITCH. DON'T EVEN BOTHER COMING NEAR ME ANYMORE. I HATE YOU SO MUCH! YOU-" Then my mom knocks on the door telling me to get out of the bathroom. I sigh and look at my self in the mirror one last time, wondering why it hasn't shattered to pieces. And then, I walk out the door finished with my morning regiment.

The Sparkle In Your Eyes

SHINY!!

I get distracted from the shine.

I see magical wonders.

I feel as if I am floating in a pool of love.

Looking into those two perfect wonders, I float away from reality; I fly away from reality, dreaming of what can become.

The fact is, your eyes, are my escape zone, I must have a glimpse of them always, in order to stay true to this world.

You Can...But I Don't Give A Shit

You can yell at me.

BUT I DON'T GIVE A SHIT.

You threaten to take away all my freedoms you mother-fucking bitch.

BUT I DON'T GIVE A SHIT.

You can threaten to beat me.

BUT I DON'T GIVE A SHIT.

Go To Mother-Fucking Hell You Son Of A Bitch Just Because You Happen To Know Things, Dosent mean you Know What Best

Your Heart Is The Thing That Leaves Me.

Friends don't go away, there love does.

They may leave you to go somewhere else, but the thing you'll miss the most is being able to see them everyday.

You'll miss hearing there loud voice, and their annoying laugh.

You'll miss their lame disses.

And how there always mean to you.

They might be gone, but their love is what you will miss.

Their care, and a little piece of you actually goes missing.

He Hurts My Heart.

He hurts me as he loves me.

When I see those eyes, and that smile.

I die a little inside.

Knowing that he'll never be truly mind.

I'm so selfish.

I refuse to share him.

I wont let it happen.

I wont let him be the cause of my tears rather than the smile on my face.

Or the depression in my eyes rather than the joy in my laughter.

I refuse, I absolutely refuse.

Why Do You Taunt Me?

Why do you taunt me?

Why do you insist on doing it everyday?

With your pretty hair and beautiful skin.

Why?

Did I ask you if I wanted to see face everyday?

Hear your graceful voice?

ITS ALL YOUR FUCKING FAULT.

I HATE YOU.

GO TO MOTHER-FUCKING HELL!!

just.....GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME AND MY LIFE!!!

The Ugly Duckling

I AM..THE UGLY DUCKLING.

I am the one no one wishes to look at, including myself.

I am the one, who is scared of their own reflection.

Me.

Answer me this, will I ever turn into that graceful swan everyone admires, or will I just stay the way I am; ugly and dreadful, something no one wishes to love?

My feathers are starting to pale and become disgusting.

My beak, is as horrid as can be.

My wings are the things that are preventing my from flying.

My webbed feet, they are the part of my day where I have to look past my fat belly, and frown at.

Nothing about me is beautiful. Not my my loud quacks. Not my dead eyes. Nor my pale and dirty feathers. Not my fat body. My ugly feet. Nothing.

I AM THE UGLY DUCKLING. But will I ever turn into that swan? Or will I just remain the horrible, fat and ugly thing I am. But soon, with no one else to comfort me as I frown upon myself

"WHY?"

"WHY?"

I keep telling myself not to do things. And keep on doing what pains me. Why is it that I listen to almost everyone else, but myself.

Its as if theres one side of me that says:

"You know the right thing." And I do know what the right thing was. I just cant seem to listen,

"WHY?"

And then there another voice in my head saying:

"DO WHAT THE FUCK I SAY AND DEAL WITH THE MISERY!!!"

"WHY?"

why do I keep on litsening to that voice.

"WHY?"

Ugh.

I hate myself for being so stupid, why do I insist on making my life a living hell.

GOD.

Confused...

I'm just confused about life. There are just so many thoughts racing through my head. Its getting hard for me to keep track of my own life.

I feel a whirlpool of emotions in my heart.

A waterfall of worries is streaming through my head.

I'm getting lost. Lost in the desert of misery. Looking for happiness. I feel depression has won the war. I honestly don't know what to feel at this moment.

Should I feel happy, so everyone around me can see me as I want them to?

Should I feel mad, just at life for my hardships?

Should I be sad, in order to get rid of my tears to make room for more that will quickly come?

Should I even be myself? Fuck, I do even know who I am.

Should there be an end to this misery? Can there be an end to this misery? Will the cruel joke of life ever be over for me? Should I just be like many and run away?

If I were to run a way, there is something I fear. After escaping the land of depression, will life just hit me with more horror?

So many questions, I'm just wondering if I'll ever be able to find the answers. Or will I just drown in my own river polluted with tears, hate, anger, and everything evil.